Meagan | Mysite

My mind doesn't stop. It's a constant flow of: Did I clean the kitchen before bed? Did I lock the doors? Did I turn off the oven? What awaits me at work in the morning?

Can someone tell me how to shut it off? I've heard running helps, or maybe journaling. However, none of this seems to quiet the consistency of all the things I can and cannot control.

Is this how everyone lives? Like your brain is running a marathon?

I guess that is the downfall of a Type A, perfectionist. Nothing is ever quite right or complete. It'll swallow you whole if you let it. But that's the key, overcoming your own thoughts. Understanding that comparisons, how clean your home is, if you get an A+ instead of an A... these things won't matter when you look back on life. Stop letting them consume your every day now.

It's easy to say, right? Now try implementing it in your thoughts. Sure, you can every now and then. But, in reality, your brain just may be wired this way. All wound up, until you just snap. That is what my panic attacks feel like. Constantly fighting with myself to "chill out" or "not stress the little things," but it's not so simple.

This is just how my anxiety works. A consistent feeling of never doing things right.

- Meagan